I just dont get it

Maybe one day i will.
But for now. I totally dont. (Plus the fact that im in a Severely bad mood accelerated by pain.)

On normal days i would have accomodated, would have accepted.
On a day like dis. I totally have no patience.
I dont get the rush everywhere.
Where are all these people rushing to?
In the morning you rush to swallow your breakfast, den you rush to work. (correction, you might simply be pushed to work)
In the noon, you rush for lunch, thereafter, you swallow your lunch.
At night you rush home.

Wads with taking things a little slower? Wads with walking a little slower.
Taking the time to breathe in air even though its not so fresh anymore?
Taking a look at the surroundings, the greenery, the people that pass you by. The buildings, the shops, everything.

Sometimes. Listening to my ipod. I enjoy these moments most.
Its a refreshing feeling. Music in your ears, scenery for your eyes.
Relaxation for two of your senses.

Why not?

P.S. I used to hate being alone. hate loneliness. Thanks to the teacher who taught me how to enjoy myself. Really. :)

can you see me crying

I have bad flu. The tearing kind. The crying kind.

My current mood : evil.
I wana spread my flu to the whole company. *sniffs sniffs* *ah choo!*

Right.
I was trying to get myself some flu tablets. But i just couldnt manage to find any. (panadol flu remedy doesnt work for me, i drank b4.)
So anyways. I was trying to get clarinase. (highly recommended) Try as i might, clarinase would not be bought.
Someone sweet ran around trying to help me buy clarinase. Thanks, rich boy. *touched*

Anyhow. I wanted to go Cheers to get some flu tablets. In the lift, i met some guys (whom i only know by sight) and one of them gave me nice peppermint tea.
Then i went to Cheers and realised i didnt bring money (how great is dat)
And she gave me flu tablets of her own! (cool rite)

Like andrew says. People care about me. Even those that dont really know me.

Oh.
In the midst of my flu, we created some entertainment, andrew and me.

Me : Andrew can you see me crying.
A : Cant
Me : let me show you. (shifts into andrews line of vision. wipes tears dramatically)
A : ok ok (questioning look)
Me : really got tears LAR
A : ok...
Both laughs.

Entertainment in the office. This is what makes work worth coming to.

No pass day

No freaking idea where my staff pass went.

So wad do you do when you do not have your staff pass for the day?
The usual, ask (somebody) to ask you along everytime they go to the toilet.
Alternatively. always hope there is someone at the reception for you to smile sweetly at, and be admitted into the office. (which was what i did this morning to get in)

And oh. I didnt beat andrew to the office today :(

Honestly four teeth-less

Right, I know ive been talking about this for about a year now.
But im so finally gonna do it!

Im scheduled for an appointment on 18th August at 8am in the morning for my wisdom teeth extraction.
Disregard the fact that the nurse was trying to freak me out with the various 'symptoms' im supposed to be experiencing, having a swollen face for goodness knows how long, being pain free, i cant still find anyone thats able to pick me from the hospital after the operation, and the fact that i would not be able to eat my favourite potato chips (thanks kev for pointing dat out, really, u r horrendously humorous.)

Yep, disregard all that, im supposed to be relieved and happy. To lose all dat wisdom on that one day.

Oh ya, not withstanding the fact that ME. Joelle Een, would not be able to talk for a long time.

Oh gosh, im so not looking forward to that, seriously.

simply this

honestly, so definately totally seriously.

How about. Connectivity.

wad gifs me satisfaction

When im real early in the mornings and beats andrew to the office.

That look on his face when he strolls in, when he looks at his watch (to 'suan' me), when we smile at each other about the unspoken fact that im almost never this early.
The smoldering stare i gave him.

Thats. So worth it.

Trip to Bangkok

A long long awaited trip.

Wic made me realise. That ive never blogged about dear phyllis.
Phyllis. The bestest galfren EVER.
That stood by me no matter wad. And wen i said that, i seriously meant that.
Loads of people have left, especially when i dont respond. When i hide in my stupid hole, and isolate the whole world.
She stayed.

We'l blog about phyllis another time.

For now, about my bangkok trip.
Lets see. The most fun part was the company.
And a long awaited talk with phyllis.

Loads of eating, drinking, shopping, chatting.
But wad i most remember about the trip tho, was this.

We were eating by this side stall. When i saw this.
大象。In fact, it was a 小象。But you cant expect me to say that, can you? I mean, can you try to imagine me pointing to something behind you and say 小象!
You probably wont believe me.
So for that few seconds, i was thinking to myself, should i say : 小象, 象 or simply 大象?
Verdict. To make sure everyone understands me, i pointed and said. 大象!
No difference. Phyllis and alvin sure didnt believe me.
They were sitting facing me, and definately could not see it coming.
So then, curiosity got the better of phyllis and she turned. Yep, its a 大象 alright.
Tugging hard on alvins sleeve (who still didnt believe me), she finally got him to turn around to see this 大象 wic was actually a 小象.

Well, that would have been it i suppose.

UNTIL.

The man with the elephant was holding a pack of goodness knows wad and gesturing wildly. With some panic in my voice, i asked alvin wad he was talking about. (he was asking if we wanted to feed the elephant for 20 baht)
I so definately did not want to!
However, the people next to me wanted to. WHY! They were locals, why do they wana feed the elephant la!
You must realise, that im not afraid of elephants. But i honestly dislike getting dirty. I mean, if it was a planned day to the zoo or stuff, i can take it. i mean, if its a day for getting dirty den okie. But NO. I was planning to get a massage after dinner, no getting dirty.

So anyways. The ELEPHANT. used his trunk to pass my back. To get its food. AND. blowed AIR (i hope its air) right across my back. (okay, air from the nostrils are so definately unclean.)

So the locals had a great laugh at the gal who was screaming hysterically right beside them because the elephant came by. I totally didnt care.
Someone had to wipe off the wadever was blown on my back.
I was so totally grossed out.

Next, the massage.
It was an oil massage. Normally i wouldnt have done it. Im pretty particular about anything thats supposed to come on my skin. And oil. Is so very. Oily. (HA)
But it can be borne with. No problem.
Ive become so unshy i realised. The light in my 'cubicle' was spoilt. And this lady had to leave e curtain half open. I risked being seen. Naked. (but i dont tink anyone did, not that they would bother anyway)
Okay, it wasnt that bad. Seriously. Being seen by others naked wasnt that bad. Being touched by a lady all over wasnt that bad too.
Up another level in my tolerance.

Plus. Street food didnt really give me tummy upsets. (i didnt dare to eat much)

And. Ive proven. Im so totally Miss Lame Queen. Oh wait. Queens are to be crowned (according to alvin). So im Miss Lame wadever.
Just. Try me. I have the flattest jokes and riddles ever. And i probably can guess your flattest riddles ever. Ask Raven. I tink he wans to kill me.

I guess dats about it. Of cos i bought myself loads, (trust me) LOADS. of lingerie. (enough for a week plus)

Ah yes. Not forgetting, that more people have realised that im little Miss Anal about everything. Who leaves her shoes before stepping into the hotel room so i wouldnt dirty it. Who washes her feet everytime she comes back into the hotel room. Urm. Okay, ive borne with food on the bed and stuff i guess. And okay, im not a neat freak. Just. A cleanliness freak. I very much prefer to be nice smelling and clean. All the time. If possible.

So yep. Thats my trip. Holidays always seem so short. But im satisfied.
Loads of misses for someone whilst i was away.
So there. Im home. And loving it.

Totally

Yea. So totally, totally totally.

Dont make fun of the words i use.
Cos. Im so totally totally.

Ha.