injury day

Im so out of sorts today.

lets see.

- i kicked my colleague's cupboard as i walked back to my desk from the toilet. (some skin came out. ouch!)
- i hit my knuckle against the door as i opened it. (my knuckles swollen, ouch!)
- i keep getting paper cuts.
- I dropped food all over myself.
- almost tumbled down the stairs. (almost)

Rite. you may think its normal. But. I'm terribly hurt ya! Physically. :(

bobble head

Yea. Sometimes i'm so airheaded.

And so we're in a shop full of action figures and stuff.. With batman, superman and loads of others...

You turned to me and said : look! bobblehead.
And i said : i dont know him.

I guess that speaks for itself.

lazy!!

Eh. wana know how lazy i can be.

Well. Theres this thingy sent to me. Rite, go check out the link below pls.

-- > http://www.i-am-bored.com/bored_link.cfm?link_id=14135

So, anyway, andrew and i got the email at the same time. And a couple of other colleagues. So, while everyone was trying to move 12 feet away...

Me : Andrew, why dont i turn my monitor to you and you tell me?

(andrew nods happily)

(turns monitor ard.)

Me : Does it work? Wheres the man? Woah.. Show me show me!!

And so andrew turns his monitor for me.

Where in the world do you get a office buddy like that?!??

Haha. And i am how lazy. Seriously. :)

P.S. My beloved boss also tried.. haha.. He looks so very cute walking up and down trying to get it.. (wif my monitor.. haha. )

this i like

I like being called Joe.

I like being called Qian.

So, today i am reminded, thanks to my office buddy! Joe. Joe. Joe. I love it. Why? Simply cos it brings people closer when you call them something more personal aint it? Well, it does to me. And it sure matters to me who calls me that lar! Not any tom dick or harry of cos. Anyhow. Being called Joe. SIMPLY sounds great to me.

Names. Do they matter?

They do, at least to me. The addressor matters too.

*phew*

I caught my sleeve on the door handle as i was opening the door going back into the office.

The only relief was. There was no one to see the embarrassment. *phew*

P.S. of cos except now. I posted my embarrassment for all to see. beat me at this. Go ahead.

fyip

For all of you who *gasp* didnt know.

I wanted to get married at 24. Have a kid by 26, and another at 28. And i sure want a boy. (Dont ask me wad happens if i get two gals.)

But you need someone to want to marry you when you are 24 rite? (and i am 24 already!) Unless i go find myself a rich man now (eh, why dat tot?) ... (relax, i wont) I'm not gonna get married by 24. But who cares now rite! As long as i have someone who loves me, and wants to give me the best wedding.. Not any tin can ring (tho its sweet). I wouldnt mind waiting now. (would i?)

OK, maybe i do. Just so long as i dont have to wait that long for that day to come.

Get the hint? :P

readership

Did i say i didnt care about readership? Did i? I did?

Well now. I didnt. Till i saw this nice girl who leaves comments on my blog. And then there was someone else i didnt know. And then i start thinking how many people can gain access to my blog. And actually read it from time to time. Eeeek.

I'm starting to freak cos i sound like a bimbo most times (cept i'm not pretty!). Nothing informative about my blog. No pictures simply cos i'm lazy. AND. I dont look good in photos anyway. Trust me. (and kevin, please take my photo off your blog cos i look like shit. pleeeassseee..) Joelle's desk is a MESS. I can see that from the photo. So please dont let people see for themselves. I'm supposed to be anal. Anal peoples desk shouldnt be messy.

Eh. I digress.

Anyway, I just wanted to say i hope you had a good read. Good laughs. And i do hope i entertained you someway or another. :)
Whoever you are. I dont know who reads my blog anymore. :( (except maybe andrew <-- you again. see how impt u are. haha)

P.S. Andrew wheres my one page comment. You're gonna appear from time to time till i get it. HA.

excuse me

Faye says I look so the kind that gets lost. Do i? Perhaps i really do.

In fact, i think i am the kind that'l get lost easily lar. But bring me to a place (only on foot, it doesnt apply to cars ) and i'll probably remember how to come back again. Oh well. which brings me to the subject which i keep wanting to blog about but i forget.

People always asks me for directions.

Maybe you think, hey. People ask me for directions too. Yes of course they do. But i guess people ask me more often than they ask you. It sure seems like it anyway. i can be going to work and have people asking me for directions. Its not like i walk slower than others. And i have my mp3 on, which kinda means i cant hear them call me. But they ask me anyway. They actually come up to me and tap me to ask the way. Seriously.

I'm going home and standing at the bus stop, listening to my mp3, and someone'l come up to me and ask me for directions. Do i look helpful or something? Or, i look like i know the way? And having an mp3 on doesnt stop them.

And. Wherever i am, there sure looks like there are hundreds of people around but they'll pick me.

Rite. What goes around comes around. So, my good deed'll come back to me one day rite? Being the kind that'll probably get lost somehow or another, i'll need a kind Samaritan to show me the way sometime.

Wait for me Samaritan. I'm coming.

office buddy

Just to let you know how important you are to me. I have decided to leave you a space in my blog. So it will stay forever and ever and EVA.

Your name? The whole world will know. (i was exaggerating) ANDREW LIM CHOON GUAN.

Haha. You're gonna kill me when you read this. But. Lets wait till you read it. Cos, you dont read my blog often anyway!

But. lets see.

Who talks to me in the office everyday.
Who talks to me about anything under the sky. Even the weather.
Who 'educates' me. (grinz)
Who jokes around with me in the office everyday.
Who shares 'private' jokes with me.
Who asks me to go toilet with him when i forget my pass!
Who informs me there are 'good looking' men around.
Who informs me who are 'good looking'
Who therefore is drop dead gorgeous to me.
Who talks to me about anything under the sky. ANYTHING. (repetition i noe, but this means emphasis.)
Who lends me his listening ear when i wana complain!
Who asks about me most of the time. (haha)
Who actually bothers what i do everyday after work (like, how was dinner? haha)
Who actuallys bothers about every detail. ( like, and then? and then? and then? hahaha)
Who makes faces at me, returns my funny faces.
Who is actually very funny.
And many many more.

My office buddy, Andrew Lim.

P.S. leave a comment k. A page. You promised.

erm

erm. Guess wad.

I stapled my finger. :_(

i'm blessed

I'm blessed.

I am blessed. With a wonderful wonderful family.

I dont know how many can say, or will say that they have a happy family, with close ties. Now i can.

I can say i never run out of things to say to my sister. I can say i have the sweetest brother.
I can say i have the loveliest mother and father that gives in to my every whim and fancy ( almost!! *grinz )

I can say we are no longer the traditional chinese family.

I can say mum and dad has never commented on the clothes that i wear! ( esp when there isnt much cloth )
i can say they remember what you love to eat and what you dont.

I can say we all changed for each other, and for the better.

AND. Which other traditional chinese family hug and kiss each other! i mean, just as i leave the house yesterday.. My mum caught me by surprise and gave me a kiss! I was like! How can u beat me at this! I'm the one that hugs everybody, hold hands with everybody.. Not the other way round!

I know, my family got used to me being physical.. They will reluctantly hug you back and stuff. But. Mum can! Kiss can!

So, how can i leave dad out. Gave him a kiss when he dropped me off.

If you didnt know i love my family very much. I do. i do i do i do. And i make sure they know it.

AgAin!

I beat myself again. Opened the door right onto my toes as i was coming out from the toilet. Right onto my toe, why did i do that! I dont know how i managed..

Was working late. Like till now. And there is no freaking persons in the office at all. Sigh. Good in a way, no one to see how you embarrass yourself! But it freaking hurts. Sobs.

Just when you tot you couldnt do better, you simply did.

How great is that huh.

Who?

Who?

Who trips so very often.
Who spills her drink so very often
Who falls so very often.
Who tumbles all the way down church staircase. TWICE.
Who is ever so clumsy.
Who bangs into glasses.
Who walks into male toilets.
Who walked all the way to her office barefooted when her shoe broke.
Who dresses up all pretty for a wedding and kicks a ball back to the game in her heels.
Who blabbers non stop.
Who likes to read.
Who likes to sleep.
Who throws used tissues all over the place.
Who wants to eat at the wierdest times.
Who loves chocolate and ice cream.
Who thinks shes not thin enough.
Who thinks getting thin takes forever.
Who forgets shes supposed to be thin and eats anyway.
Who never goes on e diet.
Who is so like a boy most times.
Who forgets she is a girl sometimes.
Who changes in the car.
Who changed in office lift.
Who loves hugs!
Who detest cockroaches.
Who tells the lamest jokes.
Who is actually the joke herself.
Who is the silliest girl you would ever know.

Who? Make a guess. :P

wedding bells

Wedding bells were ringing, for one of my colleagues.

After attending the wedding, i came up with my own wedding speech. A long way to go still, but here goes.

*break*

wait wait, stop stop. I think, i would probably make a fool out of myself at the real wedding, so please dont believe that this script would actually be just as it is..
I'll probaby trip. Spill something. Write e script on my hand and get nervous, the ink runs off. loads more i can think of, but. Thats me. You never know what other clumsy things i can come up with. ~bleah~~

Here goes :

Please bear with me for about 5-10 mins while i thank the many important people who left prints in my heart.

First and Foremost.

Mum n Dad - For accepting me as part of the family, for your generosity, your love, care and concern. For giving me a second family. I was part of your family before this day. I love you loads.

Mum n Dad (my own) - For giving birth to me (of cos) For making me who i am today. For your unconditional love, no matter what i did (or did not do) For being the most open parents i've known. For the freedom you gave me. I love you Mum and Dad.

Brother and Sister - For bearing with me. I wasnt the best sister one could have, but we adapt. For letting me the queen of the house. For REALLY treating me as QUEEN of the house. And on this day, i relinquish this title forever. I hope i stay the Queen of your hearts, and you are welcome to be the King and Queen of my house when you visit. I promise. Love you two loads loads.

Ray - For the love you gave me. The hugs. The ears you lent me. You have a special place in my heart. I just dont know it sometimes.

Pammy and Shan - The two best sisters i had, i just didnt know it and gave you up. You two still hold a special place in my heart.

For Faye - For really understanding. For your listening ears to my non stop blabberring. For all the times we had breakfast! For letting me be me. :P

The bachelors - For never treating me as a girl. For all the times we shared. All the wierd things we used to do. For not leaving me out cos i was a girl. Love ya loads

My gang - For all the times we spent as gang members. I dont join you all anymore, but once my gang, always my gang. Love you guys.

E185 and all my ex members ( and all you who heard my crap jokes) - For bearing with the lamest, flattest jokes you have ever heard from me. For resisting the urge to beat me up after you heard my jokes. I hope i brought joy to you all. And remember, flat jokes come back to you, so spread it around! but of course. its DEFINATELY better if you hear it from me. haha. (and for bearing with my loud voice and laughter)

W241 - for all the hugs and love you all gave me. You really filled my love tank. I wasnt really there. But i treasured each moment.

Bro John and GaoYuan - For never giving up on me. For loving me and guiding me through this journey. I never say it, but i do know it.

For Joe - i never thought we'll stay brothers so long. But we did. And i thank you for being a ger ger to this xiaodi. I love ya loads.

For Mr Neo - My inspiration and mentor in some ways, though you never knew it. And for being my idol of cos. :)

For Steve - who was once there for me in an important part of my life.

For Val - who always lent me her ears.

For Alvin - I just want to thank you, i dont have to say much. :P

For Andrew - my office buddy, lunch buddy. Who never forgets me for lunch. (ex for a few times :P) Who educates me, who keeps my secrets, who can talk to me about anything under the sky, SERIOUSLY. ANYTHING.

For my beloved - who never left me out.

For Sharon - who lets me be her PA ( i always wanted to be a PA)

For Juleen - For going through a tough patch with me.

For my colleagues at NTUC - who gave me good times and i hope my company was enjoyable.

For Kev - My bestest friend ever. For being through with me all of the above. Never giving up on me. For having the biggest heart ever. For changing. For being you. I love ya loads loads.

- The End-

Guess wad. I have some feeling my wedding will never end up like this. But no matter right! :P

supper

had wanton mee like at 2am in the morning.

So then i was talking and gesturing. And lovely you said : You wana fight is it?

Was i that bad now? Yea, i kinda guess i was. Sitting in my super short shorts just like the way a guy would sit. Speaking loudly and gesturing around. And the crappiest~ Getting my legs cramped for not sitting nicely like a girl should.

Rite. Sorry ya? And thanks for not being ashamed of me. I'm such a guy at times.

News Update

If you ever read my blog. Know that i dont update my blog online.

I write my thoughts down, think through them before i post them. So, once in a while, scroll back to see what i've written k!

P.S. Sometimes i dont write them down and i forget, in which case. Those thoughts dont get published lor. :P

i fOund sOmeOne

I found someone to laugh with me
We'll laugh through everyday
I found someone to stay with me
In spite of my weird ways

I found someone to sulk with me
Someone to share my cares
I found someone to cry with me
And hold me through my tears

I found someone
Someone dats true
I found someone
Someone is yOu

An Ode to my AnGel

An Angel came and showed me GOD
He showed me what i hath forgot
And when i thought that i hath not
He showed me much could not be bought

And though i struggled though i fell
My angel said my dear joelle
Theres this much i have to tell
There is none i love as well

My angel said we'll be through all
And with my angel i'll stand tall
And though i weary though i fall
My angel'll be there when i call

A phOne call

He called. And something stirred. Some memories, some songs.

And then you wonder, why is this still happening, why are there strings tugging at your heart, when so long ago some people had given up on you.

How am i supposed to tell you. When it seems you dont wana listen. What do i say? How do i tell you somethings are the same, and some are different. How do i tell you when i dont know myself anymore. How do i tell you everything when it has become a blank in my mind.

You know what? I didnt say anything.