such a brat

I am such a brat.. Lost my temper yesterday. Honestly, i told myself to hold it, sigh, how i failed.

Had a real bad headache, blisters on my feet, and stood in e afternoon heat for sometime and felt really frustrated. Fine, i was rebellious and wanted to prove i could take it, sadly, i could not.

I really lost it. For my actions, i apologise. Yet, whats done could not be undone, and i thank my friends for being so forgiving. Really. I have not been feeling well, and had been a bomb that had exploded from time to time. Gosh, that was really bad of me.

Today i poisoned my system with loads of painkillers. all sorts. My head hurts so, in fact, my whole body aches.. i hardly moved from the bed since yesterday. I slept for like urm.. 17 hours can. Woah. i am surprised at myself. recently i have been really weak. I try to swim and at the third lap, i get a headache. i run, and i get a headache. Hey. whats wrong with my system can.

I cant sleep at night too. Sigh. I honestly look like crap.

Rite. I must remember to drink loads and loads of water (wic i do) and take my vitamins..

I'm a big gal now. I know how to take care of myself.
(and i'll watch that temper k, no matter how bad my headache is)